Journey 2 Zendipity

Can’t remember the last time I leaped out of bed with excitement to do.. anything , really. Except maybe when I was getting ready to board a plane and head to a new place.

Something about the excitement of a new possibility, a new adventure, the unknown.

For a control freak like myself, it’s incredible how much I crave that feeling of a new possibility. I love adventures. I love traveling. I love the experience of learning something new. I crave it.

This year I want to travel to a new state alone. The thought absolutely terrifies me, if I’m honest. Shit I’ve gone through has really made it hard for me to feel safe with just anyone, just anywhere. I barely let anyone drive me around but I’ve continued to work hard on it. I go out alone often now, months ago I even went out to a club/bar alone. That was an interesting experience, to say the least. I’ve traveled for work to a a good amount of places and to other states but never fully alone. Solo plans in a different state ::chills::.

Traveling alone to another state is a big challenge for me and when I accomplish it, it’ll be a hell of an item to check off my bucket list. I truly believe traveling alone, at least once in our lifetime, is crucial. I can’t explain the why but I do. I don’t know what I’ll find out about me, I don’t know what I’ll learn in general or what I’ll feel. Definitely don’t know what I’ll experience and so many unknowns freak me out but that’s life. Why not experience it on an adventure of a lifetime?!

“It’s later than you think” – crazy to think how fast my life is passing by. Not to be cliche but I really do feel like I’m too old to be waiting around and too young to not take risks.

Being a mom made me feel brave enough to do more with my life in success and scared enough to not risk certain things. I remember growing up fearful of becoming an orphan and never wanted my kid to fear that. So I’ve walked the straight and narrow but the older I get, the more ready I am to take the leap. I’m so ready to take a leap… just waiting for the train to come by to jump!

I can’t wait for this trip. Not sure date or location but I feel it in my bones, it’ll be soon. when it happens, I think the doors will start to fly open because there’s no better way to kick doors open than by facing a fear . At least for me. So wish me luck y’all!! It’s happening 🙂