Journey 2 Zendipity

( I’ll never forget the older client who use to say that every time he called, and I only spoke to him a handful of times. Turns out we DO impact each other’s lives after all! 😉 so choose kindness today. )

Good morning, good morning, good morning!

Been a few. The rollercoaster of emotions had me hanging upside down, white knuckling the bar and screaming for my mommy most of last week.

I’m pretty sure I’m now sitting on the rollercoaster, it’s arrived temporarily to starting point, unable to peak my grip from the bar and catching my breathe.

Everything’s okay but everything feels off. Can’t explain it, just one of those moments.

This morning I woke up and the prayer that came out of my mouth, surprised me. I prayed for passion. Not surprising that I asked, just surprised I asked while half asleep and not consciously choosing my words.

I’ve been lacking passion in my life for quite sometime now. I’m lacking the soul set on fire and in love feeling. I’m not talking about with a person, though that’s been a while too, I’m talking about with life.

I can’t honestly remember the last time I jumped out of bed. Truly excited for the day.

I’m not miserable but I haven’t been excited either. It’s a tough spot to be in constantly snd for long period of time. Just makes the days go by fast and slow all at the same time. With nothing changing.

Which brings me to the rise and shine or rise and whine. the option really is ours on how we see things. I could look around and whine about what I’m lacking but I could look around and be grateful. Truthfully? I’m in the middle lol.

I didn’t whine when I woke up, I am truly, wholeheartedly grateful to have another day. To have a job. A home. My kid. Our health. I’m grateful for so much. I’m just acknowledging and asking the universe to please provide me an opportunity, a change a something that sets my soul on fire.

I believe that’s okay. I believe it’s completely okay. To be honest. Not fake joyful, pretending things are perfect. It’s taken me a while to get to this point but here I am. Able to acknowledge the in between place.

I want more, I want to wake up absolutely excited about the day. I want to be ready to go to sleep because I’m excited for the next day. I’m ready to smile until my face hurts. I’m ready to talk a million words an hour because my brain won’t stop over something I’m truly excited about. I am desiring passion and I know I shall receive.

I am acknowledging that I am so incredibly blessed and I am acknowledging that I am desiring more. I believe, this is a gift. I’m grateful to be able to acknowledge this and even though I’m feeling guilty for wanting more, I feel peace because I know that the Divine wants more for me too.

So this morning, I challenge you to be present. To acknowledge where you are, what you’re grateful for, see your blessed and love yourself a tad bit more to be able to acknowledge (without ego) what you desire.

Enjoy your day, your new week. The new page in the chapter of your life. Sending y’all so much love!!