Journey 2 Zendipity

Other than higher power, who truly gets to say what is the right or wrong thing? What is normal and what is weird?

I am not perfect, by any means, but my word means a lot to me. Other than “I’ll call you back” and “I will think about it” (when asked if I’m going out )… I try to make sure my word is solid.

Unfortunately, not everyone gets it.

Who decides what is the “right” thing anyways? When do you know which “right” it is? The right thing to do, the right thing for the moment, the right thing for someone else…

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I’m in a very weird spot right now between what is “right” to do, what I should do to cover my ass and what feels “right” to me. No one seems to get it and I don’t really expect them to but it is making me second guess myself .

What if I am messing up something good for me? What if I am overthinking it? What if, what if, what if!!! Grrr anxiety and overthinking, right on cue.

Truth is, this is one of those times where I have to do what I feel is right. I have to make the move that allows me sleep well at night. Not the one that covers my ass, not the one that others believe is “right” because of the circumstances (they are trying look out for me) but the one that requires me to use my shaking voice and weak knees to stand behind.

Simply because, It’s not about who they are, it’s about who I am.

Man… following my gut sure is requiring a whole lotta strength and comfort food lol

Ok I’m blabbing… wish me luck!