Journey 2 Zendipity

Ever have those moments where you look at around for an adult and realize you’re the adult? Or a moment where you’re walking around your place and realize “holy crap, this is my place, I’m an adult”?

Yes.. I’ve had a lot of those moments lately.

What’s really funny is that I’ve lived on my own for half my life, and been the “adult” in the room for longer but still, it hits me once in a while and shakes my world.

Where did the time go? I feel like I blinked and boom, I’m an adult!!

Dude..

Adulthood is the third crappiest hood I’ve been through, the first was teenagehood, ( the second was an actual hood). Yeaaaa, you couldn’t pay me enough to go back to high school, maybeee I’d take a real good pay to go back to my 20s lol!. Sometimes I do have moments where I wonder what I would do differently given a second chance. Wondering what journey those changes would lead me on. However, I am very content being in my 30’s.

Holy crap y’all.. we are the adults lol!!

I don’t know about you but I still feel the same as I did when I was 15 with No idea what’s happening, what’s next, what to do. The only difference is that now I realize I know nothing. Only thing I’m certain of is that I know nothing.

Can’t say that feels reassuring or comforting haha.

I also now realize how much our childhood created these seeds in us.
How much it molded us, me, into who we are.
Whether you came from a great childhood or a bad one, a lot of the choices we, I, personally have made are rooted in thoughts and feelings, things from our childhood.

I’m an adult.. What a load of Bs lol.

Ok rant of the morning over.
Stay tuned for my next rant. Could be sooner than expected.

Sending y’all so much love!

-K