Journey 2 Zendipity

🎵 Misunderstood – Nina Simone

Ever try to say something but it comes out wrong? Ever try to correct what ended up slipping out your mouth and make it worse? Lol yup.. same. In fact, that’s kind of my whole life. One fucking ball of misunderstood.

If I talk too much, I overshare, needing attention, being extra or just too much. If I don’t talk, I got resting bitch face and not being nice. If I am friendly, I am “friendly” , if I’m not. I’m bitchy.

Truth is that which version you hear about me depends on the person you’re asking and the version you get of me depends on you.

Either way the one common denominator is that I’m constantly misunderstood.

I’ve spent what feels like a whole lifetime, interpreting my soul to others. Somewhere along the way I got tired and just stopped.

I am a loner. When I’m around people I have high energy, I am outgoing, I like I laugh and have fun but doesn’t take long before I am back in my bubble. I am a loner, I am okay with that.

I am alone the majority of my days, I will take a phone call a couple times a month, I visit my friends a few times a month but that’s about it. The rest of the time, it’s just me. Especially now that my kid has entered teenage hood.

I am a loner and though it gets lonely, I am okay with it because I am so misunderstood.

Can’t say I blame anyone though. My upbringing is different, my brain feels like it’s from a different planet and my soul is a thousand years old. I get it, how do you understand someone who speaks a different language? Unless you understand the words not being said.

To all of my misfits and misunderstood soulful buddies… cheers!!!