Journey 2 Zendipity

In the last few years I’ve learned that something I desire most from people I care about is effort and consistency.

Effort looks different for everyone though.

It could be a simple outreach, communicating about a busy day and not being able to talk, a check in, a visit, making time for a visit… just effort to whatever that person can give. Each persons level of effort is different.

Consistency.

This one is trickier I believe, and only those who truly care or want something can be consistent. This is in all things of life. Working out, pushing towards a dream, getting to know someone, continuing to love someone, being a good friend.. absolutely everything.

These are important to me because those who care will easily be able to provide both. Again, for anything in life.

I do have additional things I truly value in life. I value people who are honest, respectful, and kind to others (not just to those they like).

I tend to find a lot of things to appreciate about individuals. I always try to find the light in everyone. I think everyone is worth the effort, to an extent. I think after a certain level, continued effort has to be earned.

Unfortunately and fortunately, I’ve learned this about me. My need and desire for these two specific things because now, I just walk away. It still sucks and bothers me but I walk away. Truthfully, I expect others to do the same if I’m lacking in this.

This isn’t just about me, it’s about us. It’s about all of us learning the things that matter to us and setting boundaries. If I am lacking as a friend or partner, speak to me and if I don’t change my behavior.. walk away. I do not hold myself to a different standard that I hold others. Drop my ass! Either I’ll correct my actions and learn or I won’t and will eventually kick my ass for losing out on someone who did their part.

It’s been a very long and short 3.5 years. It’s been the most eye opening journey in my life and I have to look out for me because at the end of the day if I don’t who else would?

For now though – stay clear of me.