Journey 2 Zendipity

I have so much in my mind and nothing on my mind.

I’ve started many blogs since the last and haven’t been able to complete a single one. I can’t keep a solid thought for longer than a few minutes.

I am handling the holidays better this year than many prior, I am feeling lonely but full, I’m missing someone but no idea who, I’m living my life like it’s vacation (when I can), and I’m realigning with myself.

Shit is good. I really can’t complain.

Then there’s the other side of the coin. I’m stressing over some decisions I have to make, overthinking my love life, hoping I’m making right moves as a mom, questioning what all I could be doing to live my life with purpose, etc.

Stupid coin lol.

Could be better, could be worse.

I Just try to remind myself (repeatedly) that I have this incredible opportunity to be a soul having a human experience. The full experience requires all of it. The ups and downs, pro and cons, all of the emotions.. both sides of the coin.

For this I am beyond grateful.

If only if it’s for those moments of feeling in love & joy just makes the experience worth while. Those moments where I’m cracking up with my son or my best friend feeling so in love with the moment, those moments where I can make someone genuinely smile from the heart, the moments where something just clicks… worth it.

Absolutely worth it.

I am a soul having a human experience. What a hell of an experience. What a beautiful experience. What a blessing.

I am a soul having a FULL human experience.

:: deep inhale::
Thank you, thank you, thank you!
:: exhale ::
-K