I think I had to learn a very crappy lesson … again.
Well, I guess If I’m having to learn it again then I never really learned it to begin with. Welp, that sucks.
The lesson…
Connection is not enough to build something solid on.
Connection, love, time…. none of those ALONE are enough to build anything solid. They all require multiple things.
I have had different types of connections in my life.
Recently, I got to experience an undeniable connection and chemistry with an incredibly beautiful soul, and it was mind-blowing! It was so comfortable, calming, fun, and peaceful.
The conversations were effortless, and the time together was all around a good time, one of a kind vibe.
So much laughter and talking about things as if we knew the history of that topic. We both were utterly shocked at how smooth it was just being around each other. We both knew it, we both felt it.
It was an old soul type of love and connection that with one spark at the very right time, it could turn into a long-term serious thing.. One that felt like we have been doing this for a long time and it was just a matter of time if we didn’t keep our distance.
We were both aware that we were something special to each other in another life & we were both able to admit that we loved each other deeply in that lifetime.
There was absolutely no denying it. It was special.
We even had a Matrix confirmation LOL, not one but two separate cats, in two different locations as we talked about the same topic. It was something I tell ya.
Damn those cats.
It was the closest thing to “home” in a person that I think either of us had felt in a very long time.
However, chemistry and connection alone just aren’t enough. It never will be.
Love and Feelings are not enough. Divine timing, the desire for the other, the readiness for a commitment, the self-love, the respect, the willingness to put in the effort consistently on good days, bad days, and all those days in between… I’m sure there is more but all of these need to be there too.
Effort directly reflects interest, which is a non-negotiable for me. I refuse to be in anything that feels forced or begging someone for any kind of love and attention. I can’t, It brings up some extremely ugly feelings within me and it’s only my fault for having allowed it in the past to cause these ugly feelings now but I can ensure I don’t repeat it.
I am at a place in my life, with so much peace, that it’s an all-or-nothing. I simply don’t have the desire to filter myself or my love, for anyone and someone not being ready for that is more than okay. Just means they are not for me, I am not for them. Truth is though, someone can want you and not want the seriousness of the long term. That is okay. Just means you two are not in the same place. It’s unfortunate but not a hate-worthy thing.
I fall in love with moments and even with feelings toward a person at that moment. I have started to really learn to differentiate deep, pure, IN-LOVE with a person and their soul vs. in love with the feeling a person gives me in a moment. I may fall in love with someone again, hopefully, but for now, I am appreciating the moments I feel the “in love” feelings. This was one of those moments.
A solid relationship can only be built when there is more than just a deep feeling or undeniable connection.
I haven’t found my person yet, looking forward to it, but I do appreciate these beautiful souls I get to meet along the way. They each teach me something, and they each add something I never knew I wanted or needed.
This time around it was a little bit of everything not aligning for this Divine soul and me but, there is nothing but love still remaining. I look forward to seeing what life brings them, what we both learned from the connection.
This incredible soul made me feel at home for a second, a feeling I have prayed for. So to have had it even for a moment was incredible. Now that I’ve had it, though, I want that energy long-term and can’t imagine settling for anything less than Home.
Connection, chemistry, and love alone may not be enough but it sure is sweet when we get a taste of them.
If you’re reading this…
I appreciate you & I am still missin’ your energy. ❤ I wish you all the best always & grateful to have been at home with you on those lovely moments.
I could have gone through with the Wednesday plan (one day) 😂. Thanks for matching my crazy. xo
With love,
-K
p.s. get it together! LOL
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