Journey 2 Zendipity

I remember a few years ago talking to this woman who had just recently lost her grandfather. It was such an emotional time in her life. This man meant so damn much to her and it was felt just by watching her. Everything about how she walked and talked was the love from and for her grandfather. I had never seen loss in this particular way.

I was expressing my condolences to her and we got into the conversation of life and loss with the new understanding we had about life in that part of our journey. Life & loss, loss & love.. it was an incredible moment of realization they are two sides of the same coin. Without love, loss would be meaningless and without loss love would be taken even more for granted. Sunshine and Rain.

I remember looking at her and feeling this honor to be in the presence of someone who had such a pure love. I felt honored to learn about such a pure love. I am pretty sure I cried that night for her, for me, for the immensity of the emotions.

I tried to explain it to her as best as I could, why I felt such an honor and pain for her. I still can’t quite find the words for it other than, what an underrated honor and BLESSING it is to have loved and been loved by another soul SO incredibly deep that their physical loss takes a piece of you with them. It is heart breakingly beautiful.

Well, Today this came to mind again because someone I care about is reliving a loss like this and I don’t have enough words to help. My distance is probably the best I can offer because I know that on my worst physical loss I couldn’t possibly begin to understand what they are feeling, but their walk and being is filled of this persons love had and love shared.

This one is for you 🖤 because though my words will never be enough to heal, right now they are all I have to offer. So, for today, I’m offering them all to you.

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Dear 🖤,

As someone who has never experienced that kind of love, my heart aches for you both but also skips a beat in a beautifully tragic way, because that physical loss could never rewrite that type of love experienced. That bond. I cannot imagine how difficult it is to not hold them, or hear them but I am certain that they live in you and all around you.

In every beautiful moment you experience, in every flower that makes you take a deep breathe, in every person you meet that helps you in your journey, when the breeze hits you just right on a warm day, the touch of a loving hand, an embrace, in the smile of your sibling, in the moments you feel love for yourself and especially in the moments you finally feel proud of yourself… i believe that’s your angel(s).

That kind of love is endless.

That kind of love jumps through dimensions and dreams.

That kind of pure love is Gods love for you through a powerful human connection.

As I write this all I keep thinking is, if I were this angel, my entire being would be full of pride in you and your sibling. For so many reasons! For starters, your bond.. that’s an angels dream and prayer. Your resilience, your compassion through the struggle, your drive… so much love and so much pride.

🖤, I know today is rough, probably most days still are, and I am so sorry I can’t do more. I wish I could for you both, but I hope Lucas is providing you and your family all the love and light i so deeply desire for you all.

In the short time around, I can see that this angels impact on the world was greater than they could imagine. Not just through their actions but you and your siblings actions in the world .

I am wishing you both so much love, peace, joy and healing through the good days, bad days and those days in between.

🤍

With all my love, -K

Raising a glass to your Angel… 🕊️