Journey 2 Zendipity

Sometimes it’s hard as fuck to remember that all we can do is be in the moment and take things one day at a time.

We are human and it’s natural instinct to want everything NOW. Even if we aren’t fully ready for what we actually want.

Example, I wanted to buy a house a few years ago but I didn’t even have the time to clean a small apartment nor did I have the funds saved to fix anything big the house may require. I didn’t think about the next steps and responsibilities. I just wanted what I wanted.

Patience was never my strong suit but the Divine pushed me into a chapter of my life that requires patience I never imagined having. It’s still a muscle I have to exercise daily but it doesn’t hurt quite as bad as it did when I first started practicing it. I started practicing by learning how to say “thank you” in those moments.

Oh, I know that shit sounds bonkers but it’s true. I don’t remember this every single time, like when someone forgets to put on their fucking blinkers and I’m in a hurry lol but when I do remember it, it feels different than when I allow the moment to make my emotions fly off the hinges.

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As I’ve mentioned in prior posts, I’ve been feeling like I’m in Gods waiting room. No idea what I’m waiting for but I’m sitting here impatiently. I’ve read all the magazines, all the ingredients behind all the bottles I could find, read the books, counted the tiles.. you know all the fun waiting stuff but still here I am.. waiting.

I don’t know when or what or how but I feel it so deeply in my bones that learning patience is part of my gift. Learning patience is part of what will bring me into the next magnificent chapter that’s coming but if we want to play devils advocate and say it’s not, it still feels better to believe it is.

Shit is always comes at us, left and right. Why not believe it’s for a bigger purpose? Why not see the light? Why not feel in your bones that there’s something bigger coming? Why not just for a moment choose and accept the positive feeling that all this madness is for a bigger purpose?

Idk about you but it makes me feel better.

Today.. I can use that feeling of better and hope for what comes next. One moment at a time, one step at a time, one day at a time. That’s all I can do, but I’m going to try to remember each one to find some peace in the possibility of it being better because the alternative is just negative emotions.

Reminder, just take it one moment at a time. You’re doing an amazing job! You’re worth the good feels and don’t always have to expect the worse to avoid the feeling if/when it happens. Just enjoy the moments shit is good..

I am sending y’all so much love and light!

-K