Journey 2 Zendipity

I’m not sure what the Divine has planned for me but lately… oooohhhhh weeeee!!!

From dating, to friendships, to work.. I am being tested.

The hardest part right now is dealing with one person who takes no responsibility for themselves. At all. Not even enough to keep a conversation going, doesn’t even entertain it to say “at least I tried”. I mean, no budging there.

I am walk on eggshells, holding my breath for the next bomb to drop.

This is not a fun feeling at all.

I find myself having to reread multiple times what I am writing to them, I end up spending more time watching my words. It’s just painful and frustrating.

I have no idea what is coming by way but I hope this is just the storm before the sunshine and not just the calmest part of the storm.

These are the times when it’s so damn hard to find things to be grateful for.

I am working on doing better. Although all I truly want to do is yell and bitch. Point fingers and avoid facing my own set of shit.

I am human y’all. I have a lot of human emotions, as you have seen, and some days it’s really freakin tough. I swear, it’s been about 2-3 solid months of tough.

Praise him in the hallway, K. Praise him in the hallway.

Today I’m making sure to put my gratitude list together. I need a better focus point than this shit, or I’ll just keep seeing more shit.

Send prayers and good vibes y’all.

With love,

-K