Journey 2 Zendipity

If you’ve been around me for the last decade, or read some of my earlier stuff, then you know that I often speak about how growth doesn’t often happen in the comfort zone.
The problem that I’ve come to learn recently though is that sometimes, we don’t notice we are “comfortable” or in the comfort zone. What happens in the comfort zone? We start seeing signs that we need to make changes, that something isn’t aligning with a bigger goal, or just stagnancy. What happens if we ignore those signs? Divine comes and kicks that fking chair right from under you!

You ever experience that?

Something small or big but you KNEW you had to make a change and kept pushing it off for another day until something happened that shook your whole damn world?

Yup.

I think if we all stopped and really thought about it, we could figure out a moment. A relationship that we felt in our core something was off but we kept looking the other way and then blew the fk up, a job that you knew was time to leave, a move we were delaying, friends we started feeling some type away around or anything really.

We usually always feel it to our core before something, the Divine, comes around and kicks us right the hell out of that comfort zone.
ESPECIALLY if you have chosen the spiritual journey or intentionally have started to ask for change.

Well, that is the current chapter I am in. Big Time.

A couple of months ago something really shifted in my place of employment. I won’t go into detailed here because there is absolutely no need for that but I knew immediately that it was time for me to go.
In fact, if I’m honest with myself, I knew it 6 months ago. Something in my felt.. I don’t know.. Like I was not standing on solid ground? That’s the best way I could explain It. However, 6 months ago, there was no real logical reason for me to believe it was anything more than me overthinking. I didn’t have facts or real hardcore reasons to believe it but my core knew it. Deeply. I ignored it.
Two months ago, 6 weeks to be exact, I really really knew it. Still chosen to ignore it for a little longer and it wasn’t until about 8 days ago when I decided to make moves.
Unfortunately, I waited too long and Divine kicked me right the fk out of my comfort zone.
Gave me no chance to change my mind, no change to think of “what if’s”, not even a second to get comfortable again. I got let go.

Let me tell you, it’s my first time and it royally sucked.

Today, my 3 “business” day without a business to actively go to work for and I’ve been going THROUGHHH ITTT y’all (emotionally) but today something shifted again an I feel in such a different place!

I realized at some point today that I don’t feel as bad as I THOUGHT I felt. Does that make sense?
Though I feel worried, I feel secure.
I feel more in control of the future than I had in a while, I feel certain of the route I’m taking, I feel lighter, and I feel excited for the future again.
Yes, it’s not a fun place to be in. I am a single mom and well life requires money but I know I got this. I have so much faith and belief that it’s all working together for something better.

Divine made me move. Ok, fine, Divine gave me no choice and FORCED me to move and I am sure for many reasons but today I started to see a few. Very important few.

I have no idea what tomorrow brings but hard work doesn’t scare me and I will always make sure my son eats and has a roof over his head. So no matter what tomorrow brings, I have no doubt that we will be okay. Whatever “okay” means. It may look very different a month from now but it will still be okay.

Growth doesn’t have in my comfort zone and I’ve been asking to be moved from God’s waiting room. So, here it is, and today felt like Day 1 of this new chapter. I prayed & the Divine listened. (Obviously not in the way I prayed for it to happen but you know the saying “Want to make God laugh, tell him your plans”.)
I am feeling excited about what this new journey is about to bring.
I know it’s about to be a hell of a journey but my faith is solid and this core feeling I have is greater than any fear I could feel. Thank you Thank you Thank you!

Wish me luck y’all, send a little prayer or just positive vibes. This is one bumpy ride and I cannot wait to fill you all in!!!

With So Much love & gratitude,
-K