Journey 2 Zendipity

I have learned to find gratitude throughout most phases of my journey. It’s seen first hand the way it attracts more of what I need rather than what I want. Ego vs Soul.

However, I find myself struggle to feel blessed the most when I feel on top of the world.

Hear me out before you label me full blown crazy lol

I’ve felt on top of the word a good amount of times in my life but I always ended up feeling guilty when I got that high.

A couple years ago I learned about these feelings wrapped in “imposter syndrome” and “survivals remorse/guilt”. Understanding why I rejected the feeling of blessed when at the top helped me stop rejecting it because truth is, I busted my fucking ass both in the physical realty and spiritual realm to be where I am today.

I put in the work. Nothings been given to me. I have been blessed throughout my journey but where I am and how I am doing was my sole responsibility and just like I took the L I am choosing to accept the wins!

I am feeling incredibly blessed for so many reasons. SO many reasons.

My new job, the friendships I have in my life, the peace I feel, the security I’ve created. I feel incredibly blessed and for the first time, though I’m feeling that guilt still, I feel the joy from the blessing. The deep in my soul gratitude for this moment.

Delayed post from 5/30/22