Journey 2 Zendipity

I’m going to be vulnerable today and share with you exactly where I am in life.

I have a new job that I enjoy so far, but constantly feel like I am way in over my head.
Now, logically, I know this is not true.
In fact, if a scale showed all of my career challenges and where I stand on how over my head I am, this would be way low on that madness scale. Yet, there are moment where I have been drowning myself in a glass of water.
Being around people again has been an emotional challenge. By the time I get home I feel so mentally, physically and emotionally drained. I’ve done amazing at keeping up the other things in my life but I just feel like I’m continuously dragging the exhaustion from one day onto the other.

Homelife is okay. Luckily I don’t have to worry about school or cleaning too much as I’m nerve home and my son is away for most of the summer. This has been an incredible help, expect that it doesn’t force me to cook. So my bank account is crying, I’m crying, the dogs are crying, the walls are crying and everyone is crying because who the fk wants to cook yet again for one? Not me.

Social list, this has been one of the biggest changes in my life.
Working from an office now, I am volunteering, and attempting to be more active in my church, bible studies. I have really turned this around. Doesn’t mean I’m getting very far LOL but I’ve turned that car around. That’s huge. If you’ve been around for a bit then you know that I don’t do much in groups. Huge win!

So as you can see.. life is “good”. YAY!
I mean, yes, I am feeling so full and grateful. I am happy. Now let me fill you in on the last section of my life.

My Love Life.
Yup, that sucker right there.
Some of you knew that ish was coming, others are laughing cause well “what love life K?” , and the rest are rolling your eyes cause psh.. okayyyy. Yup, same.
Turns out.. I’m emotionally unavailable. Welp.

2023/07/05 at 9:44 am