Journey 2 Zendipity

🎶 Like we used to – A Rocket to the Moon

This song always puts a smile on my face. The person who dedicated it to me was incredibly special to me. Made me feel deeply loved.

For some reason today though, this song not only reminded me of this person but also so many other thoughts came to mind.

Like when my kid told me “ but I loved you first”, letting me know that I was in fcat the first person he ever loved. Which then brought me to, yes I have loved many! What a blessing!

My childhood, or lack of, really created two solid parts of me. The part of me that is ridiculously cold and the part of me that loves fiercely. Thing is, I have loved MANY! I have loved so many people. I’m not just talking about romantically, romantically I have loved many too. See, I use to be proud of being like the rest in my generation that were proud to not love but then I grew up and realized that was such bs. I do love, I love deeply, I love often. I have NOT fallen in love often… that’s rare. That one is to my core, but that’s a different story because I think that big for ever type of fall is being reserved.

Anyways, point is, I do love a lot. I love a lot of people. I can’t find something to love in most people. which is where the song kicked in, the tile: “like we used to” and made me think of when we are kids.. how we love everything and everyone (most kids). Like this joy comes over us over the littlest things, the bigger things, the in between. We just love. Why not love that way? Why not continue to love like we used to?

I love many, I have loved most people I dated, I have loved people I didn’t date, I have loved strangers, I have loved crushes, I have loved acquaintances, I have loved strangers, I have loved characters in a movie/show/book… especially a book lol. I have loved many, I have loved often and I’m not embarrassed by it.

I’m proud to no longer be in the mindset that it’s a bad thing to love. If anything I feel like it’s brought me so much joy and wisdom. The trick wasn’t to get myself to love people, it was to learn the difference to love people for their characters, love people for their whole being and loving people because I love me through their love. The trick was to learn loving someone vs being IN LOVE. Learning love and appreciation from person to person, even when chemistry is there, vs truly loving someone.

Though I loved him, my son, before he could love me on his timeline… he loved me first.

Thought I love often and a lot, I don’t fall in love or rise in love with just anyone.

Lastly the true unconditional love of my Divine. No restriction, loves me despite, has my back , loves me inspire.

Why can’t we love like we used to? There is always a chance of getting hurt.. loving less doesn’t avoid that.. if anything it just stops us from even the possibility of love.

Just some thoughts.

Hope you’re all doing amazing!

Sending y’all so much love ❤️

-K