Journey 2 Zendipity

The last few weeks have been a little rough, primarily with work.
I spend a ridiculous amount of hours a week working and so when work sucks… a lot of shit suck.

It has been weeks of feeling like I’m holding my breath for what is next, overthinking, and sleepless nights full of deep emotions. Mostly because I feel that I’ve come to a fork in the road where I have to decide some big stuff.

Luckily though, this weekend I woke up with much-needed clarity… the issue has been me. It’s been me all along.

You see, I lost sight of why I do what I do and let my priorities get all out of order.
I forgot my non-negotiable, my boundaries, and let my vision get clouded.

I haven’t volunteered in weeks, I haven’t even made it out to the gym. I can’t even remember the last time I took myself out on a date. I’ve spent little time in nature, haven’t painted, still haven’t wrote my next chapter.. I mean seriously my whole personal life disappeared and work was it.

I allowed work to take over my entire life.

I cannot control what others do or don’t do, I can’t control what they think or almost anything but I can control me and it was my bad.

Without fail, every single time I let my priorities get out of order.. the rest of my world gets out of wack. Things start to feel pointless and the passion is sucked out of me because it’s no longer a joy or love, things become burdens and a ball of overwhelming stress.

If I do what I do because I want to travel, live a full life and soak in every minute with the people I love then why would spend every free second I have working more and living less?
Why would I allow work to take months out of my life and take up the time that is reserved for the things I love and make me feel alive?

I’m only human, I’ll continue to struggle with this but every time I catch it.. everytime I get this clarity, I feel so full of gratitude.

Now time to working on my discipline and getting back to my routine because without the time to fill my soul with things I love, it’s pointless.

If you are struggling with life today.. hang in there. Take a step back and see if you too may be struggling with your priorities and balance. You may not have the money to take a trip across the world like you want but maybe a little adventure can help you fill that void while you save for your dream.

Sending y’all so much love.
Hope you have a wonderful coming week!
-K