Journey 2 Zendipity

My social batteries did not properly recharge overnight.

I want to be in a cold, dark room, alone, with a good movie, tons of food and not needing to say a single word.

Not one word for hours.

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I literally am talking 10-14 hours a day for work. My role requires me to give a lot of energy and everyone always assumes because I have a lot of energy that I’m extroverted. That it energizes me when it’s opposite.

Yes, I have the energy, I have the personality, but I need HOURS AND DAYS to replenish that energy.

I get off work and have to spend at least a solid hour in silence, alone. On weekends, Sundays is my solo day usually. Not a word spoken out loud. Just alone.

Yesterday I didn’t get even a minute of regarding peaceful energy..

My batteries are on E. I’m running on fumes. The day is flying and I can’t seem to even get a hold of it. I can’t seem to get anything done and my brain is lagging like a 90’s browser.

My 100% today will be live somewhere around my usual 40%, max. That’s all I can offer and now, I just have to come be okay with that so that at the end of today, I don’t feel like I failed due to my lack of energy or productivity.

Today is a day that I have to remind myself, often, that my productivity does NOT equal my value.

Hopefully you’re having a better day and your batteries are full but if they are not, just a quick reminder that your productivity today does not equal your value. Just get some rest this evening and tomorrow is a new day.

Sending yall so much love & positive vibes!

With love, K