Journey 2 Zendipity

I’m still learning how to listen to my true north, my spirit guides, my heart, while balancing the truth in my head.

I am still learning how to swim through all my thoughts and human emotions to really capture if it’s me or God.

I do this by praying, by asking myself questions like “why do I want to do this?” , “do I have certain expectations?” , “ what is my real intention?”, “am I expecting an outcome?” – I’ll give you a few examples you may be familiar with lol

The famous, let me text so & so (the ex person or situationship) to show them this picture of the bird that says caw and made me think of them. 🙄 LOL you know which I’m talking about. So my questions would be like.. “okayyyy but like for real, what am I trying to do?”. The answer is usually “trying to start a conversation” or “catch their attention”. Next question depends on if they are current in my life or someone I’ve closed the door on “am I really JUST trying to show them something that made me think of them with zero intentions of anything orrrrr am I trying to open a door that was closed for a reason?” , “ would I really be okay if they didn’t reply?”. Ohh and the best one “do I miss them?” If yes, “what do I miss about them?”. Those questions all help guide me because if I’m doing something out of kindness and no hidden agenda (usually hidden to myself too 😂), then it’ll bother me if no response because I’m human but I’ll be fine and move forward. No regret, no embarrassment, nothing.. I did it out of kindness. If I’m trying to get their attention and it doesn’t work, I’ll be pissed at them and myself and now my day is ruined.

Another situation, the opposite. When I feel the need to message someone but I’m restraining myself because of xyz. I ask similar questions.

I do this as often as I can for situations that I don’t impulsively get into, which are less then before but still more than it should be. lol I can be impulsive at times 🤷🏻‍♀️😂 and situations where ego can be guiding me.

I am learning, truly I am, and often when I let myself be guided by God, spirit guides, divine, true north, or whatever anyone wants to call it, I get confirmations in different forms. My favorite ones are “coincidences”. 🥰

Two of my favorite quotes are “Coincidences are Gods way of remaining anonymous” and “if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans”.

So check it out..

This week I had 2 moments that I felt were confirmations.

I’ll share the big one first lol hang in there with me as I giggle through it. Soooo lol I have a massive school-girl crush on someone.

It’s pretty ridiculous actually. They are not someone that’s even an option, in no way, but they are in my inner-ish circle and well, they are in my life, crush or not. I had planned a surprise for them for weeks, a funny gift, and I planned to hold until after the day to give to them but I got overly excited and almost blabbed. I told them I had a surprise and was told not to blab it that they wanted the surprise. So I spoke to a mutual friend about it, and they said, well if you do it early it’ll be an even bigger surprise since they definitely don’t expect it until after X day. So that night I prayed hard on it. Making sure my intentions were pure, asking the questions of why I was doing this, if I had any expectations. I kept feeling like I should but my human got in the way and I got nervous that it would give my crush away lol so I was trying to push it away but when God puts something in my heart, he makes sure it stays there until I move. If I’m in alignment, I catch on. Next morning I get woken up before the alarm. Not just the groggy wake up, I’m talking about 5 am, wide awake. I tried for an hour to close my eyes but nope, wide away. Not even yawning, nothing. So I knew what’s up. I got up, did my thing, later that day I gave left them my surprise. Which actually was a funny thing that really was for the inner child. Anyways, I didn’t hear anything all day. Later on I find out this person I was pushed to give gift to was having a horrible day. One of those days that weighs heavily on you. After finding out, I got a meaningful thank you. So then I understood the assignment, I was being pushed to show this person love and give joy to the inner child that was getting an emotional beating that day.

Second moment was this morning, something so small but it spoke loud. I sleep pretty consistently on the right side or the bed or the middle. Mostly because I have more room on that side with my nightstand and meditation area and whatever. Anyways, I always lay on the right end move to the middle, last 5 years I’ve been single it’s been pretty routine. Last night we got home late, I didn’t even look at my bed, I pretty much walked into my room, turned off the light, kissed my dog goodnight and sat on the right but laid in the middle then turned and stayed on the left side of the bed. I work up on the left, I got my alarm this morning to shut it off and laid back on the left. Entered the bed on the left. The left was my comfort peace. I spent all night and morning on the left side of the bed. I thought nothing of it other than how nice that the pillow was cold 😂. Fast forward, I get up to get ready for work and i stretch to the right for my glasses but roll out the bed to the left, I go wake up my kid, jump in shower, come back to the room and turn on the light to get dressed. I look at the bed that is directly in front of me and on the right side of the bed, there are 2 piles of clothes folded. 2 piles, folded. My son folded my laundry (amazing!) , put it on my side of the bed I’m guessing he assumed I couldn’t miss it but didn’t say anything. They weren’t leaning, they were dripping over. There were just 2 piles of freshly washed and nicely folded clothes. Yalllllllll, any other night my normal sleep would’ve knocked that shit off the bed, landed all over the floor and given my dog an extra bed then found in the morning I messed up lol but nope, 2 piles absolutely untouched looking like someone JUST placed them down. I laughed and said “Lord,you are so good to me”.

Amazing.

Coincidences are Gods way of remaining anonymous. ❤️

One confirmation was bigger because it required me to silence my ego, my human and trust my true north in a moment that my intentions really could’ve gone south and the other was a small, kind gesture that my human needed but equally as important because my whole soul knew even without my human acknowledging , that I needed to sleep on the left.

I feel the loveeeee!!! I get it, when I’m looking for the love I find the love in the little things. The coincidences, the guidance, the confirmations.

Ok ok this wasn’t even the topic I planned on talking about but man, it filled my heart up writing and sharing. As always, I hope something I wrote resonated or at least made you smile cause as okay as I am sharing the struggles, I really want to share the joy.

Sending yall so much love and hoping that today, you hear the guidance & or experience a coincidence.

With my love & my excitement,

-K